joi, 6 octombrie 2011

Far or away ?

"It's not hard to be far, it's hard to be away. " Alexandru Iagar.


Yes I know !  I just quoted myself it's kinda self-centered, but I'm trying to make a point. so please when you judge and i know you will, don't be so harsh. I've been away for a long time but the distances is nothing when you think about it is that you are away you are not there. Doesn't really matter how far away you are if u aren't there when it counts. You know. And I fell that in the past years i have been away too long. And I started to deal better with this, but i also enjoyed this far far away places i have been. I mean you get to go to this amazing places and you stand in front of them astonished and the only thing passing your mind at that time is : " i wish that my friends could be here with me , or my sister or .... " you know what i mean.
This past days i found out I'm abut to go again but this time apparently i have followers which is cool means i get to do things with my friends and it will not be so freaking hard anymore. But i still leave home and i will miss my moms. And the thing that hunts me every time is that I'm away and she will have no shoulder to lean anymore. But i learned, and know I'm better at dealing with this but still every time when is around the time to leave again i go in to this state of mind that makes me sad that I am leaving and with this i still don't know how to deal with...

The hardest thing I have done is to leave !